Julie Posted May 2, 2008 Share Posted May 2, 2008 Dear friends,I can't begin to tell you all how hard the last several weeks have been. The reality of losing my darling, precious husband just really, really sucks. I waited so long for him to come into my life and we had such a beautiful life together--full of passion, friendship, laughter, and so much love. He died 3 weeks before our 3rd anniversary. His birthday was yesterday. He would have been 46. Wow, that is just way too young. My wonderful brother-in-law passed away last Saturday. He was only 52 and had been battling ALS (Lou Gehrigs disease) for the past 10 years. His wake was held on his Bday--April 29 and the funeral was on my husbands Bday--April 30. Certainly not the way any of us wanted to celebrate their birthdays. Now, I am at my mom and dad's so I can attend the funeral of my 1st cousin who also died last Saturday. He was 60. When it rains, it pours.I'm trying so hard to remain positive and upbeat, yet everyday seems to bring pain. I have such beautiful memories, but they just make me sad. We did everything together, so now I am just so incredibly lonely. I know he's in Heaven and that is such a comfort. I am relieved that he did not suffer. I'm jealous because I am stuck here on earth without him. Guess I'm really having a pity party tonight. I guess none of us is ever really ready to say goodbye to those we love. I don't have any regrets--other than our time here together was too short. We spent our last evening together cuddling on the couch and expressing our deep love and affection to each other. I told him how much I respected and cherished him and he told me all the sweet things that a wife wants to hear. I just miss him so much.......I do thank my dear friends who sent me words and expressions of sympathy and prayers. It really meant a lot. It touched my heart deeply.My husband died of hypertrophic cardiomyopathy--it's "sudden death"--like athletes get. I am thankful that he did not suffer for 10 years like my dear brother-in-law did. I am so thankful for my wonderful family and my 3 beautiful step daughters. Blessings,Julie Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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