But seriously folks.... in Everything Posted July 11, 2006 I thought it would be appropriate to give an update on my situation. A few months of seperation and now the divorce is final. At first I thought I jumped the gun and shouldn't have gone thru with it, but it can't be changed now and I am getting used to it. I have begun assertiveness training, applying it a little bit here and there. Baby steps. I had to learn to open my mouth and speak up for myself in every area of my life. I think not being able to have a healthy equal disagreement or discussion or conversation with my ex led me to the mindset of-why bother wasting my breath. My now ex and I are still seeing each other exclusively. However, I am still much in the dark when it comes to him. He is a hard nut to crack. However, being alone has given me time to step back and see some of the real him. Most of what I have discovered about him I don't feel good about. It is hard not to need a man. Things break, truck needs fixing, etc... he's a very good handman and pretty much a jack of all trades. It is not easy to sum it all up in a few short lines. Anyway, I have begun to write a fiction story(even though I'm not nor have ever been a writer) it is my escape from reality sometimes and a 'perfect life'dream that I now fantasize about. I am also relearning piano and just trying to work on myself, and stay sane and look at the bright side. I also think I have had some sort of mid life realization(or mid life crisis as they call it). Piano is harder than I remember it to be but fun none the less. Best wishes to all of you!