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  1. Continuing to keep you in prayer. Glad that Valorie is doing a bit better. Does Valorie have a Caring Bridge website? I don't know how widespread those are, but in my area, they are pretty popular. You can go to their website here and see if you think it might be something of interest to you both. We have a family friend that is battling breast cancer that has one of their sites--it is a great way to keep family and friends updated. Anyway, hope things continue to improve and you both get some rest and restoration! Love and Blessings, Julie
  2. Thanks everyone! Things are looking up! The sun is starting to shine over here! Now, let's get some good stuff happening to everyone!!! Blessings! Julie
  3. Dear Father in Heaven--we lift up your daughters Valorie and Vera in prayer today. We ask that your divine will be done and that you would cover them both with a blanket of your love and protection. We pray that you be with those who are taking care of Valorie--that they are able to keep her as comfortable as possible. We ask that you give Vera the strength and courage to deal with whatever is to come. Father God, you know their unique needs--they are your children and you love them dearly. Please let them feel the love and support of their ec.com family as well. We ask this in Christ's Holy Name....Amen Love and Blessings, Julie
  4. My good news!? I got a part-time job--24 hours a week--but it has benefits! I will be an intake receptionist at the local hospital! This is good--it's from 2 to 10 PM--this will fill in my lonely evenings. Benefits! Can you believe it--for a part time job! Actually, there is lots of room to move up to full-time and move into other positions once you get your foot in the door. I think part time will be awesome to get back into the swing of things. Blessings, Julie
  5. I'm going to share one of my husband's memories of childhood that he shared with me often. He grew up in this house and he had 5 sisters (he was the only boy--spoiled rotten!!!) The 4 older sisters would put him in a Radio Flyer wagon and take him 4 miles down a gravel road (yes--4 miles!!!!--I have measured it with the odometer!) They would take him to the little hamlet of DePew, Iowa and go to a little store there and get ice cream. Sometimes they would walk all the way back as well. Julie
  6. In the early 1990's I got hit by a drunk driver who was fleeing from another accident. My car wasn't hurt that bad--he just hit the back bumper from the side. It sure did mess up my back though, and to this day I have a huge numb spot on my leg from nerve damage. Yep, it could have been a lot worse. It was about 5:30 in the afternoon, not really a time of day when you're worried about that sort of thing happening to you. We all do things in life that we regret. We all wish we could rewind some things and do them over again. Sometimes, we just need to say, "Hey, I did a dumb thing. I am so sorry." and then we need to make sure that the dumb thing never happens again, and face the music, so to speak. Then, learn from our mistakes and move on with our lives. God's grace is an amazing tool for that very thing. Accepting the consequences for our actions, asking for forgiveness and making some changes are all it takes. Pretty simple really. Eric, you and your family are in my prayers. Julie
  7. Lol! This is silly! McCain Fortress Palin Weird, huh?! Julie
  8. Julie

    Cheer me up

    Hi everyone, I guess I've been AWOL for a few days. I had won my unemployment hearing! Nice to have that behind me! Even if they appeal this again, I still get to keep my money. Whew! I had a job interview today. It went well--will just need to wait and see. I did the best I could. . Raspberrywolf--my, you are so sweet. I am so touched by your message. It is nice to have folks in my life who truly care! Blessings, Julie PS--Muzza & Kiwi!!!! Thanks for the Chocolate Fish!!!! Just what a girl needs when she's down--chocolate! They are awesome!!! Thank you!!!
  9. I am so sorry to hear of your loss, Cosmik. It is so hard to lose someone we love. You will always hold him in your heart, but, it's not the same. Again, I am truly sorry. Blessings, Julie
  10. Julie

    Cheer me up

    I'm just so touched by all of you! Oh and DanMichel, that was just awesome! Wow! That is so beautiful. I'm going to print this thread and put it in my "memories" book. Anne--you know, James is a tremendous inspiration for me! Today is kind of a "sad" day--it's my father-in-law's birthday and James' youngest daughter's birthday. I called Jessica to wish her a happy birthday and she was a little down too. She turned 21. So glad that James left me with this beautiful, ready-made family! On a positive note, yesterday, 2 of my gal pals from church and I took the boat out on the lake! We had a great time! We each had something to contribute to the experience. I had pulled the boat behind the Explorer before and have piloted it around the lake. Friend Karyn knew how to hitch it up and how to get it off the trailer and into the water, and pal Teri was all gung-ho to back the Explorer w/boat down the boatramp. It was pretty funny. Everything went really well until it came time to back it down into the lake and there was a young guy sitting in a car giggling at us. Pal Teri hollared at him--"hey--are you laughing at us?!" and he sheepishly replied that he was. Then, Teri told him he should just help us instead of laughing and he did!! Lol! Anyway, we had a great time and it was really empowering to set our minds to doing something like this and then doing it! YeeHaw! Good luck with the job Chris!!!! Blessings, Julie
  11. Julie

    Cheer me up

    Ah, the Mexican food was indeed delightful tonight! Muzza & Kiwi caught me just as I was heading in. I enjoyed 2 banana daiquiries! Yum! Billy--interesting that you've been to Council Bluffs. I only lived about 40 miles from there before I got married. How's the job hunting going, Chris? Julie
  12. Julie

    Cheer me up

    Hi Everyone, Thank you all so much! Keep it comin'! It does help--more than you all probably even realize! Former employer still fighting me on unemployment, but it's in God's hands. Applied for a couple of jobs yesterday. The one would actually be something I'd be good at, but only pays $8 per hour! Geez--I could get that at McDonald's and get fries to boot! Lol! Just got home from my weekly session with my councelor and that always makes me feel better. I am blessed indeed to be surrounded by good folks! Blessings, Julie
  13. Julie

    Cheer me up

    Oh, and Annie--I'm doing TONS of volunteer work! I do 3 days a week at the Senior Center, volunteer for the Welcome/Visitors Center, volunteer for the Chamber of Commerce, help out with a youth group at church, do computer work for an older couple at my church and I'm taking care of a neighbor's yard, kitties and plants until the end of September. (it takes 4 hours to mow the lawn with a rider! Big yard!) Jules
  14. Julie

    Cheer me up

    Mornin' All, Yesterday didn't turn out too bad. I have lost my voice because I did a big ol' honkin' frustration scream the other day. It felt good, but don't know if I'll ever get my voice back! I dropped off papers at the lawyers yesterday. I meet with him Monday morning. Went to the unemployment office and found out if she wins the appeal I have to pay all the money back. Does that totally suck or what?! Why the heck do they give it to you if there is a chance you'll have to pay it back! It's already gone! Geez! I made the bed this morning and went out and watered my flowers. Wish I could get my energy back. It's not a terrible day though. I do have much to be thankful for. I am fortunate that I have such wonderful support! Blessings, Julie PS--moving is not an option. I wouldn't know what to do in an urban area! Lol! Besides, I live here rent-free! That is something to really be happy about!
  15. Julie

    Cheer me up

    Thanks guys! This is what I need. Keep it comin'! I am going to grief counciling--a new group just started in town--however--it is just once a month. I am having some regular counciling as well. I am currently off all meds, except I have some Xanax for anxiety attacks. I try not to take it. The other meds were just making me want to die and frankly, after 3 horrific experiences with meds, I was terrified to try anything else. My doc agrees that I am in much better control sans meds. I had 1 Xanax yesterday and really only need them on average once a week. I was on a national radio Christian talk show several weeks ago--Intentional Living with Dr. Randy Carlson. Unfortunately, I was the last caller of the day and he zeroed in on the meds and didn't really give me an opportunity to talk about what I wanted to. Kirk--New Life Live does sound familiar to me--I will check into it later today. A lot of my issues are situational. I live in a very rural area with limited resources. Thank God for the internet! I am looking into schooling. I will probably do an on-line Excel class offered by our community college. Grief is an unwelcome monster. It robs you of your energy and your ability to think clearly and rationally. It slithers around in your life just waiting to pop around the corner and give you a "jolt". It hides sometimes and makes you think it is going away only to re-enter your life with more fury then you thought possible. Your friends and family who have not experienced it have no idea what you are going through, and you pray every day that they never have to live through it. You wouldn't wish the unwelcome grief monster on your fiercest enemy. I have gotten through the last five months with prayer, keeping busy, doing volunteer work, reading books, visiting grief websites, visiting family, going to the cemetery, thinking about happy times. I know James is in heaven and I know he is happy and content. That is a huge comfort to me. Well, I need to get moving. I have to take some papers to the lawyers office for my unemployment hearing. (Thankfully, I have the best lawyer in town!) I won the first round easily, so don't really know why I am worried about round 2--other than it is "in-person". I'll check in later. I know I am going to need support and reassurance. Love and Blessings, Julie
  16. Maybe this has already been posted here. Thought it was amusing. Go to this WEB PAGE Basically, you tell it when you were born and it gives you the song that was tops on that day. For me, it was "El Paso" by Marty Robbins. Interesting...... Julie
  17. Julie

    Cheer me up

    Oh guys, my life just soooooo sucks right now. I always try to maintain a happy and positive outlook, but it's just getting harder and harder. I know there are people in this world that are much worse off than me. I know that I have a lot to be thankful for. I know that things eventually have to turn around, but, man oh man, things are really sucky right now. As many of you know, my darling husband passed away unexpectedly 5 months ago. Six weeks later, my sweet brother-in-law followed him after a courageous 10 year battle with ALS. His funeral was held on my husband's birthday. Since then, both of my parents have been in the hospital and they are just getting older and more fragile. I got on some meds for depression after my husband died. The first one made me eat and cry and the second one made me eat, be crazy and want to die. The 3rd one made me so dizzy I couldn't function. I got fired from a job I loved. Now, my boss is fighting me for my unemployment. I won the first battle, but now she is appealing it and wants an "in-person" hearing. I am going to have to hire a lawyer at my own expence. (keep in mind that my husband was the bread winner making over twice what I do) Now I don't have a job and had to find my own health insurance. Thankfully, my husband did leave me a little insurance money, but it's really not that much and I'm having to live on it now. I am blessed to have some wonderful friends from church and an awesome pastor. I love my family. I have 2 adorable kitties. Oh how I miss my dear husband. He was my very dearest friend, my lover, my confidant, my closest companion in everything. I waited 45 years to meet him. I had lived with my mom and dad before I met him. I'm so lonely and so sad. I wish I could just grieve over the loss of my darling James, but I have to spend endless time looking for another job and fighting to get unemployment, health insurance, plus I have to learn how to live on this farm all by myself. I don't know how to do a lot of stuff. I have to figure it out. I hate bugs and the farm is crawling with crickets this year. I know I'm just whining and having a big ol' pity party. I am so jealous of everyone on here that has a "normal" life. I don't know if I'll ever feel "normal" again. I don't know how to manage money or the farm. I suck at paying the bills. I don't have the energy to do laundry, clean the house or do anything enjoyable. I can no longer listen to Eric's music--it just makes me cry. We adored "I Was Born to Love You" and played it at our wedding dance. We danced to it this past Valentine's Day. I met my sweet man 4 years ago yesterday. I just miss him so much. He was an incredible man who had overcome so much in his life. He was in prison from May of 1996 until August of 2003. He didn't see his children for years and years. But, he overcame all of his drug addictions and his worldly ways and accepted Christ in his life. He truely changed and he would hate to see me like this. It does not honor his memory or his legacy for me to be like this right now. I just need encouragement so badly right now. I need to have some kind of sign that things will get better. Guess I need some of Darlene's magic lemonade. I hate that I am like this right now. It is not the person I was or the person I want to be. I know I am in a horrible transition. Please, cheer me up. Slap me, kick me, tickle me, whatever. I just need to get out of this place I'm in. Thanks for letting me vent. Blessings, Julie
  18. Julie

    unemployed

    Networking is a good part of why I'm doing so much volunteer work right now. It's a small town and folks know my situation. I know the right thing will come along at the right time. Right now, I'm using this time to collect myself and put my life back together. The volunteer work is a win-win thing for everyone. It makes me feel good to help someone out and it makes me feel needed and it really helps them out too. Blessings, Julie
  19. Julie

    unemployed

    Thanks R4Ever--I was starting to feel left out. I had my unemployment fact-finding interview yesterday. Even though my boss fired me, she is trying to say I abandoned my job. I sooooo do not need this added stress right now. Won't know the decision for a few days. I don't know what kind of job I'm going to be able to find here--not much available around here and I don't want to move on top of everything else. For now, the volunteer work is fulfilling for me--even if it doesn't pay the bills. Sorry everyone--I just have a lot on my plate right now. Blessings all, Julie
  20. Julie

    unemployed

    Thanks Hollies and MJ Julie
  21. Julie

    unemployed

    Hey Chris, Do hang in there. I know where you're coming from--I got fired last month from a job I love. Lost my husband 4 1/2 months ago and my brother-in-law--so, I really do know that life can be a huge challenge at times. I figure, God must have a very special plan for me. He's really been working on molding me. I feel like I've kind of turned a corner this week. I have been doing volunteer work this last month. I work at the Chamber of Commmerce/Welcome Center for our town and I also help out at our Senior Center's lunch program. I am also going to be going to a couple of nearby nursing homes to entertain. I've sent cards to people in church who have been really helpful to me also. For me, all of these things are keeping me out in the public and who knows, maybe a job will come from it. Try to stay positive. I know it can be a real challenge at times. Praying for you! Blessings, Julie
  22. Julie

    pet prayer

    Chris, Prayers are being said for your "Rascal". Gosh, if I didn't have my 2 kitties right now, I couldn't make it. They truly are my reason for getting on with life right now. Hope things improve on the marriage front as well. Having lost my darling husband who I loved so dearly and was my very bestest friend in the whole wide world, makes me want everyone to experience a marriage like that. AIt breaks my heart to see marriages suffer. Hang in there--you're in my prayers! Julie
  23. How 'bout having it on a farm in Iowa? Lol! I could set up a stage on a flatbed trailer out in the yard. Iowa is centrally located. I don't have a job, so I've got plenty of time to work on it. I'm depressed as heck, so this might actually cheer me up and give me something to live for. There is a 6 mile long lake 1 mile from my house and a casino 5.5 miles away. I've got about 80 trees in my yard and a cornfield--therefore, wouldn't even have to rent porta-potties....... Just another thought to ponder. Don't know about a name though.......how about Wii?? Weekend in iowa? Julie
  24. Oh my! I am just so touched by all the lovin' I'm feeling on this board! You are all such a blessing--so glad to be here. I love how you all are assuming my boss is a "he". It's a "SHE"--and, she just gave me the biggest raise they give a few weeks ago. I really don't want to go into a lot of detail about her work ethics (basically, she ain't got none) and I'm thinking that someone along the line she must have really been damaged to treat others this badly. Believe it or not, my last words to her were, "I'm praying for you and Jesus loves you!" Anyway, I know there has to be something better for me down the road. It doesn't seem like things could get too much worse! Just wish my husband was here to wrap his arms around me and tell me how much he loves and supports me. But, he's my angel now. Thank you all again. I am just so very touched. Blessings, Julie
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